The pain is still here..still ever present...still causing tears to roll down my face..I was in the heaven scene last week in Crossroads and every time they had the people run to Jesus...I thought...howd did you get to Him...did you crawl..even though you were not crawling really fast yet...then I thought..NO...Jesus picked you up and "held" you. And so I weep again...
I am FINE...we are fine...but it has a new meaning...it just means... I am here...she is not...and we are trying to make our way on this earth until then..WE ARE FINE...we are HERE.
The shear shock hits me about daily...like when I thought about my surgery next week...and I knew Leslie would come and sit with me...I litery said to myself.."oh, she will bring Brooklyn and I could play with her." Then I cried again.
Losing someone in your life is something you CANNOT prepare for. It changes you...deeply. But one thing is for sure...GOD did not change...HE did not MOVE...HE did not leave us. HE IS HERE...HE IS HOLDING us together. HE IS HOLDING BROOKLYN. GOD just is EVERYTHING...He restores my soul when the pain gets to be too much...HE wipes my tears...HE holds me.
Please continue to lift my Sister, Jason, and William in prayer...they still need it and if you have room for the rest of our family...we might need one too.
Love with all you have...give all you can to those you love...
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