Never, never, never

If you had told me a year ago that I would be making my niece's birthday cake for her Celebration of Life ...I would of told you NEVER would that happen to us...such tragedy. NEVER...NEVER

Well...NEVER happened...she came...she gave us unbelievealbe joy....our baby girl...she died...we lived...but living in this manner is so difficult. It is best explained by saying that we died too...but kept breathing. That is what it feels like....like part of you had died.

I can't tell you the complete depression i was in for a while and sometimes still slip in it. I can't tell you how many posts I wrote and never posted on here...and I just read them...and glad I didn't ....not sure i even remember typing such words. It was ugly...it was lonely...IT IS OVER.

I am on a mission...to craete a Rainbow in ANY storm!!!! God has provided us all with something...something special...something only YOU have...something ONLY you can use at the right moments to either help yourself up again or to help someone else. I am so utterly greatful for all that God has given us. We have needed every ounce of strength just to get to this day...and the days ahead...

Here is Brooklyn's birthday cake...that I vow to make for her every year..

Happy Birthday, Brooklyn! I hope you had the best birthday in heaven any little girl could have. We love you!