There was a wreck....

it was early...
tires screech...
marks are made...
on the road...
so deep and so dark....
about 4am...
911 called..
phone rang....
we went running...
one car involved...
ambulance there...
police there...
on lookers everywhere....
just looking...no words...
at the hospital now...
there has been a fatality....
we cry...
we scream...
we talk...
people gather...
tons of people come...
there is paper work...
there are arrangements to be made..
more decisions to make...
questions to be answered....
more crying....
then the funeral....
then the graveyard...
then everyone leaves...
its time to go home...
time to move on to the next day...
people are gone....
they have forgotten or so it seems...
we still SEE..
we still FEEL....
we still KNOW...
those deep....
those dark...
marks are still there...
on the road...
we feel the impact of that wreck everyday..
we see the moments before the wreck....
we wonder what would of happened if we could go back..
we want to go back...
but we can't
there was a wreck..
everything is changed...
everything is different...
its a wreck..

Before we lost Brooklyn....life was like a beautiful ride on a gorgeous fall day....the wind in your hair....the sun on your face...and then it happened...the WRECK....

A wreck is the best way to describe death and how it truly feels. It happens...the wreck......everyone rushes to the scene...they do their job....then everyone leaves and then...it comes....THE AFTER.....you are still standing there alone....dumb founded by the sheer shock of what just happened and what are you to do now? I have been in an actual wreck before and I remember afterwords being somewhere and literally feeling the jolt of my accident. It is the same in death....the JOLT comes so often...the pain still comes...the tears still fall....but every one's done their job...the mess is cleaned up...but there was still a wreck..there are still deep dark marks on my heart....

Now, I know what you are thinking....Julie...God is with you...Brooklyn is with God...He is going to get you through....YES I KNOW...I could just scream it....YES... I KNOW THAT!!!! But, my heart...my sister's heart....but our family...you just can't clean up those deep, dark marks from our heart...like it never happened...like we are just suppose to get over it...I don't think so!!

But you know what? God knows that....HE understands our pain....HE promises to never leave us...that is why I love rainbows so much....there are storms.."wrecks" that happen that turns your life upside down....but if you keep looking...keep your head up to the sky's....a rainbow appears and then you KNOW...God is with us....through the storms...

My prayer is that whatever storm you are going through...whatever  "wreck" you are recoving from...you KNOW that God KNOWS....He is with you in the journey...just keep your head up...just keep looking for those RAINBOWS.....

Julie